Test Results and more Information

I heard from the doctor on Tuesday. Here is a copy of the email I sent to some close friends and family:
Hey Everyone, After 3 days of phone tag with the nurse at my doctors office (**very frustrating**) I finally talked to my nurse. As many of you know already, my well woman pap came back abnormal- nothing new. This is why I've gone in like 4 times in the last year. Each time they have pinched off my insides and tested them further, which always came back negative. Until now. It came back positive for pre-cancer cells and I have to go in for out patient surgery. We don't have a date yet, I now have to wait on the surgery scheduler to call me. The surgery takes an hour and I can choose to be awake or be put out. If Insurance covers it, you can assure yourself I will be asleep for this. The surgery clears out all the areas that have showed up positive (which is all the ones tested). It does not assure that this will not happen again but hopefully, and God willing, my immune system will fight it and it won't happen again. Only time can tell us. I will update y'all as I get information. Love you all!

Well, I got more information so here it is:

First, I must say thank you from the depths of my heart for all the encouragement and support each and every one of you has already extended to me. Love, prayers, encouraging words, foot massages, food... you name it! :-) Thank you! The Lord has reminded me how loved and cared for I really am and I thankful for this and for each of you.

Second, I have more information:

James and I go in for our Pre-Op appointment with the doctor Thursday, October 16th at 3:40. This was wonderful because it was basically their last open appointment for the week and it does not require me to leave work early enough to make a difference to the kids, if early at all. So praise Him in that. I stress out some when I have to miss work. I feel like it takes more work to miss work then just being there myself. The actual surgery will be Tuesday, October 21 at 9:15 in the morning. At first I was thinking- 9:15, not bad. I can sleep in a little... like a whole 2-2 1/2 hours- SWEET! No such luck :-/ I have to be there 1 1/2 before surgery time. I obviously don't go in for surgery very often, bc I was like why in the heckola do I have to be there that early?!?! But whatever the reason, I am sure it is important and we will be there at 7:45 in the morning. There are 2 parts to the surgery from my understanding (please keep in mind the only time I have talked to anyone is during class while I am trying to listen and maintain the calmness of 22 hyperactive 5 year olds. lol.) One part is cauterization and the other part is CO2. It should take an hour, maybe a little longer. If I choose to go under anesthesia, I then have to stay until I wake and use the restroom or something. I feel like I missed something when the scheduler talked about this part... I did hear another hour to hour and a half. Whichever, I'd be there longer. I've heard that this doesn't hurt but I am not really wanting to be awake for this. We're looking into if the anesthesiologist is in network or out and how much it cost if he/she is out. I have already met the insurance deductible for the year so if he/she is in network we're using it!

Third, many of you have asked how I am feeling about this. I left the emotion out of the first email on purpose. In a lot of ways, I am such a transparent person and others I am so reserved it's scary. I don't really know what brings out what but for some reason in the first email, I chose to not show any. I like to present a strong face but I am weak. If I recall, I was teary eyed when I wrote the other email. :-) Welcome to the wonderful world of Casey Davis. I am scared. James asked of what exactly (him and his logical thinking- he sure does keep my feet on the ground). I am scared of all of it, the procedure, the pain, healing, bleeding. It's a complex feeling though. At the exact same time, I KNOW God has me in His hands and pressed up against HIS heart keeping me safe, whatever it is that safe looks like for me. His will and plan are better then any idea I could ever create in my head. So, I am thankful for my salvation and that I have Truth to hold dear and near to my heart to get me through this. He keeps James strong and grounded for me. He is here supporting me and loving me through this. He encourages and reminds me that the result of my past do not effect his feelings towards me or his love for me. I am thankful each and every day for the husband God has blessed me with... as well as all of you!

Thank you so much again for everything. Please keep praying. I will never pretend that I don't need them.

I love all of you,

Casey